One year…I can’t believe it’s been a whole year.

One year ago today we said hello and goodbye to the sweetest boy. Our lives were forever changed that day. One year later, I sit here staring at another miracle and can’t believe that I am lucky enough to be a momma to an angel as well as my earthly little man. There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t think about Dougie and wish that I could go back and change things. However, I am learning to be grateful for what the last year has brought…Doug and I have grown so much stronger bc of Dougie, the support from friends and family have been amazing and of course we have this new sweet baby boy who reminds me daily how special it is to be a mom.

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In the early days of my grief I would listen to music to help me. I would listen to one song called “Beauty from Pain” by Superchick. I would listen to this song and wonder when I would ever see beauty again. I eventually started to be hopeful that I would someday. One year later, I am finally seeing some beauty. I beautiful baby boy that is Dougie’s little brother. Declan is not only our rainbow baby but he has given us the chance to hope again. We will never forget Dougie and we will raise Declan to know his older brother. After all, Dougie is as big of a part of our story as Declan is and we will not forget that.

Dougie, we love you, Happy first Birthday in Heaven sweet baby boy!

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Dougie is all around us. We think about him everyday!

 

 

 

 

 

 

One thought on “One year…I can’t believe it’s been a whole year.

  1. I love that you used my book. Although, it is hard for me to see the name changed. You know we mothers are protective even of our babes in heaven. Although my book is out of print right now, we are working on republishing within the next 30 days. Please pass the word so that Nathan’s ministry can help other parents. I’m so happy God gave you two children! One that lives in God’s arms and one that lives in your arms. Blessings to you! Cindy Claussen

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